Now that I've thought about it. It has been a power struggle between the two.
One is hyper, energetic, out going, talkative but emos a lot.
The other is quiet, not as out going, smart, funny and likes to play.
Needless to say, loyalty, loving, devoted and such is definitely present in both. That's why you see when asked who i preferred or who is the main i cannot find an answer, its just not possible. When tasked with the impossible of choosing one was a torture i never want to go through again. Both of them are like opposites, making a perfect balance. If god allows i would combine the two into one or even have both. Yeah, I'm greed but so what, all humans are greedy. I can't bear to find one without the other, if feels just wrong and weird. Perhaps is karma getting back at me for doing what ever i did but at least whilst doing it, i was completed again and gotten many good memories out of it. Which inevitable causing pain now. I know what i did is wrong. But god gives a second chance I'll definitely make it right.
Something to make clear:
1)apart from keeping them from knowing of each other. I've never lied nor have i made an empty promise. Everything i did is for a reason. Just ask and now I'll tell you. It's not a matter of who i loved more for i loved both equally unbiassedly
2)Don't say i treated anyone better than the other. i treat them both equally. The lacking or excess is due to what they themselves lacked or have in excess to make it all fair. Like i said, combine both to get hold.